I and my first boyfriend have not talk for months though I know he is back in manila. There was no effort from him. I was still in the dark, I don't know if there was still an "us" but I still love him and I miss him and Im hoping we can work things out. Life goes on, I still work in a fast food restaurant and we still go out to drink until I got close to Ed. He was four years older than me and had a lot of experience already including sexual experience, he shares about it but not in details. He was always there for me until he admitted that he like even if he knows about my status his feelings didn't change.
Our gang decided to walk to antipolo on Holy Thursday. I asked my girl friends to invite my boyfriend so it will be our chance to talk. On the day of the walk, my boyfriend arrived but he didnt approached me. I was separated with the group because I have to wait for my best friend and his boyfriend. Upon arriving in Antipolo, I saw my bf and Ed with he group. My bf just looked at us as if he was not worried but Ed immediately approached me and ask how am I. Until we went home, the bf didn't talk to me, didnt even looked at me when he went down the bus we rode. I was so devastated.
Some of the group decided to stay over at a friend's house, we ate, drank and had some fun and I found myself beside Ed. When we decided to rest, we were together and I slept on his lap, I let him touch my hair, my arms and just cuddle me. I don't usually let a guy friend do that to me and he knows that and it might have sent a wrong signal. After the holidays, he was extra sweet, and I let him put his arms on my shoulder. A friend noticed a number on his coin purse, it was our date, according to him. I was a little shock and talk him about it. He assumed that we were an item already after the walk. Wow. I didn't realized I have a boyfriend already! I thought about it and eventually I let the situation be. He was a great boyfriend and he didn't change me a bit. We go with our friends together to have a drink and I appreciate it a lot because I can still enjoy with my friends.
As usual, we would spend the night of drinking at a friends house and when I don't have work the next day we would just sleep there. The house have double deck bed so we stayed on top while my other friends were at the bottom or on other beds. I would hear moan and whispers sometimes but as usual I would just ignore it. Ed and I usually just sleep together but nothing happens except one night when he started kissing me.